God's Voice Shakes The Earth
Hello there, I wanted to tell you of a Testimony that I had in 2004. I didn't go to church. I didn't pray. I had not gone to church in what it seemed like 10 years and if I prayed it was just a handful of times. I was consumed with my life and only my life and my family's life. I didn't pay attention to the cares of others. Mostly it was about my life..and my family's life. I was going through something, I was feeling very sad and um, I went to the library to get some books on psychology and a book popped out at me. It was about this guy that remembered Heaven and uh well, I thought that maybe...I was skeptical about the book and found it interesting. I thought that I would check it out and read it but I was very skeptical about it. When I got home, I settled myself to read and I looked at the first pages that they have about the book and stuff. I rolled my eyes and said, “we'll see.”
Anyways, I went ahead and checked out that book. This man was talking about his memories of Heaven. His pre-birth memories of Heaven and I have had something similar. Not as extravagant as his but definitely extravagant in it's own right. When I was a kid I told my mom about it. I told my family about it. They heard me and they were amazed and we went on with our lives as normal. They didn't know what to say about it. I guess they had never gone through something like that so they didn't know what to say but this man from the book was talking about something similar! And when I was done with that book I know it was real! And I ran through out the house. I was filled with so much happiness because I knew that MY EXPERIENCE was real. Because he was talking about things... that I knew about...
And he doesn't know me and I don't know him. And that just oh wow, I ran through the house and I was exclaiming, “ It was real!” “ It was real!”
Well, I forgave everybody everything and I repented for every single sin I've ever had. I went back all the way to my childhood days. I named my sins one by one. And um...my faith increased by 150% .
My love for God grew even more. I have always loved the Lord but when It came at me, it came at me and I was so happy. I felt the love of God. It felt wonderful I can't explain it. I felt like I was in His hands, in His Heart, in His Love. It felt peaceful and it felt overwhelming in my chest. It was just all around me. It was sooo nice!
Well, I ended up moving across the country. I was going through a divorce and I went to live with my mom. And over there we were going to church and I was determined to learn about the Bible. I mean I used to study the Bible as a child and stuff but I really didn't know very much, like a lot. I didn't know.
So I wanted to know as much as I could. So I went ahead and I had this church pick me up and uh we were visiting that church and we would have a church bus that would come and pick up the people. Well, the bus came to pick us up and on the way to church I started thinking that perhaps...perhaps God- maybe He didn't want me. Because I had a thought that came into my mind – a word. As if...and I believed that it came from the Lord and I thought that He didn't want...me...around. That church was meant for better people. That um...I would offend God with my presence there. And it took a moment to sink in because when I got to the church, I went in with my family and I sat down but I was feeling very uncomfortable. Because I felt that I was in the house of a person that didn't want me there. I felt unwelcome...and I didn't want God to feel offended by my presence. So I got up and I was leaving the church. I was only there for 10 minutes, I had just arrived. The church service had just started and my kids came behind me, my oldest daughter and my younger daughter, my mom and the pastor's wife. And my daughter said, “Mommy where are you going?” I said, “ I'm going home, I'm leaving.” and she said, “but we just got here, Mommy please stay in church, Mommy please don't go.” That's what she was saying. She was six years old and that's what she was saying. She started to cry, she wanted to stay in church. My family was there, so I told her you could stay but I'm going home. And my older daughter wanted to come with me and I told her “no”, I told her to stay. But she wasn't listening she wanted to come home with me because she didn't want to leave me by myself. My mom was like, “oh my!” The pastor's wife said, “where are you going?” I told her that I'm going home. She said,” Why you just got here.” And I said, “you wouldn't understand.” Because truly I didn't feel that she would understand the abandonment that I felt in my soul. I mean God is the biggest source of strength that we have. That I have. Even in my life when I wasn't going to church, God was still my source of strength.
When I wasn't in the Word, when I was living in the world. In my sense of thinking, He was still my source of strength.
And um, for Him not to want me was the worst thing that could happen to anybody. It's the worst thing that could ever happen to me. And this woman couldn't possibly understand that. And I knew that she would come up with all sorts of excuses and she could not possibly understand how I felt inside. Because I felt that I knew what God was thinking. Seriously 100%.
And what I felt was that He didn't want me.
So my daughter cried and cried and cried at the top of her lungs insisting that I stay. I mean she was crying very loud, it was quite the scene outside that church. The pastors wife, my mom, and my daughter crying. And my older daughter I believe was crying too I'm not sure. Eventually she did. But anyways I turned around and I left. As I was leaving my oldest one insisted on coming with me. I told her to go back but she wouldn't leave. And we walked in silence. She was crying and sad and I was angry. And that is how we were walking home. I didn't know the way home because I was new in that city. But I was going to get there.
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As I was leaving my older one came with me and I insisted that she go back but she wouldn't leave. And we walked in silence. She was crying and sad, and I was angry and that is how we were walking home. I didn't know the way home because I was new in that city but I was going to get there. We passed by another church on the way home and there was a man standing by the door and he asked me if I would like to come into the church. I just kept walking and I ignored him because obviously he wouldn't understand what was going on and he was a stranger and I wasn't going to sit there telling him. Even the people that I knew I wouldn't tell them because I just didn't feel that they would understand. So he said, “oh my...” as kept walking. I felt bad but you know, what are you going to do? I kept getting the urge to pray and I didn't want to. I didn't want to because why? Why would I have to pray for? I mean He didn't want me in Church, my presence would offend Him. Why-I didn't want to pray. I kept refusing to pray and the urge kept getting stronger and stronger and stronger for me to pray and I said “no”. But it wouldn't leave me alone and I finally gave in and I prayed and this is what I said, I said something like , “I left the Church because I felt that my presence offended you and I didn't want you to feel offended by my presence. Your judgements are right, they are righteous and they are just. And you are a just God you are righteous.” I said um that if He didn't want my presence in Heaven that I understood and I wouldn't want to do anything to defile Heaven. To be in Heaven and defile Heaven with my presence. I told Him that I am not going to stop delivering Bibles and that I'm not going to stop being nice because it makes me happy. Then I said, “In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen.”
And as soon as I said that my shoulders got really heavy. I started seeing sound waves in front of my face. The cars stopped. Everything froze in time. People froze in their tracks, the cars stopped, and a Voice from the sky said, “ I would never leave you nor forsake you.” And as that voice spoke those words, a man's voice, that came from the sky! Spoke those Words, the ground shook, as soon as He started talking and it ended when He stopped talking. “ I would never leave you nor forsake you.” And His soft Voice from the sky shook, shook the earth. And as He spoke those Words and the earth shook and people stood frozen in time, electrocution hit my chest, from His power. It was just like a live wire attached to my chest, I was electrocuted in my chest. But it didn't hurt, but it was a big source of power. And I nodded, I nodded. And I knew Who was talking to me. And I knew that I was wrong. And then everything started up again, cars started moving, people started walking. I mean, that Voice, from the sky said, “ I would never leave you nor forsake you” , and I knew that it could be heard for miles and miles. And He didn't yell, He was very kind and soft with it but even though He was soft and kind the earth shook beneath my feet, it really truly shook.
Jesus has so much power.
And I wasn't asleep and I didn't have a vision, I was wide awake. I was walking home. And this all happened all in front of my eyes. I walked in silence to the house and I didn't even get lost. I didn't even know the way home but I got there without getting lost. And it hit me when I got home...God talked to me like He talked to the people in the Bible!
Never in my wildest dreams, never in my wildest dreams would I think that He would take the time to talk to me.
I'm telling you, that is still amazing and it's 2011 now and that happened the summer of 2004 and that's never going to stop being amazing. I'm not special! I'm just a mom, I'm a woman. I'm not like Abraham, I'm not like Isaac, I'm not like Jacob, and I admire those guys for doing God's work and for being God's people. Praise God for them. But He spoke to me...
And If He can speak to me, then He can speak to you. And if He would never leave me nor forsake me, then He will never leave you nor forsake you.
And that still brings me and my children strength.
So I want you to know something okay? He would never leave you nor forsake you.
I don't know what you are going through today. I don't know what is going on in your life but I know somebody who is really powerful, His Name Is Jesus. And He came to the earth to die for your sins. So that you can go back to Heaven. Jesus Christ is The Son Of God, The Holy One of Israel.
He would never leave you nor forsake you. Call Him, He's waiting. And your deliverance is at hand. He will be coming back soon. Repent and be baptized. Forgive everybody, everything so that God can forgive you. Confess every single sin to Jesus. Live in Holiness and follow the commandments like John chapter 14 verses 15-24 in The Bible. If you love me follow my commandments.
Walk in Holiness world. Repent! He loves you, He would never leave you nor forsake you. But friendship with the world is enemity with God. Friendship with the world is making yourself an enemy to God. And I know we don't see that because we don't understand that but it's the truth, it's written and that's how it is. And we have to obey the Word of God, which is in The Bible. Don't forget to pray for Israel. God bless you.
Isaiah 53:5 King James Version (KJV)
5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
John 21:25 King James Version (KJV)
25 And there are also many other things which Jesus did, the which, if they should be written every one, I suppose that even the world itself could not contain the books that should be written. Amen.
